What do I regret the most? Not taking pictures, not creating tangible photographs that I could look back on. Look back to see what we had and how we liked each other. People ask if we ever did anything. No, wedidn’t. I REGRET THAT. I know we had feelings for each other and I know that we should have focused more on each other, but summer just wasn’t our time. Maybe it was the right person, and the wrong time; or maybe both the timing and person was wrong.

you can’t just go around, dissing schools like USC or UCSB. You’ll be fucking lucky if you get into Riverside or a Cal State. So don’t you dare go bagging on schools I hope and want to go to. 

Fuckin’ 4nDy man i miss you. Text me/call me/hmu cause i wanna hang out with you

Anthony tony bb you were a real darlin’ i think we’re like really good together tbh cause we’re so similar it’s funny LOL when you asked me what apes was about and then i handed you the book and told you to look for yourself and you were like tbh i don’t want to read this i’m really lazy and this may sound dumb but that was like one of my favorite moments with you

roses are red,

violets are blue,

fuck you.

Don’t get your hopes up, girl. He doesn’t like you anymore. Just move on and go like some other guy. C’mon girly, you got this. 

so you try to fucking threaten me with a pen..then scissors lol you wouldn’t fucking dare stab me. I had you in that fight and you know it. just give up you’re a weeny.

I want to hit you up. I don’t want to at the same time, because I don’t want you to feel as if you’re obligated to talk to me. I get giddy and nervous and frustrated and I get those damn butterflies, yet sometimes I get angry and frustrated (not in a good way). I love talking to you. Our 7 hour long phone calls..I miss those. I miss your little cute laugh every time I would yawn. “did you just yawn haha” “yeah” “it’s so cute I want to see you yawn”. “your voice sounds so cute on the phone” I miss you tbh. I don’t know how to cope with loss like this. I want to text you, but you never seem interested in talking to me until the next day. I don’t understand. Apparently I “saved” you, but how? You don’t even make the effort to text me anymore. We were there for each other. Now I don’t even think we could ever have a conversation, not small talk but a deep conversation like we used to have. I MISS YOU GODDAMMIT. MOTHERFLIPPIN SHIT CALL ME NOW I will pick up. you’re so damn considerate why did I not appreciate our conversations and shit fmdsaoghkdsla;fdasfadsfanklda;fda

ugh. 

ughh. 

text me or something you butt.

omg I think I’m beginning to like you………………but I CAN”T OMFG it’s not right..I think I do like him..will she ever forgive me? yes, yes she will..but he’s so considerate and cute when he argues with his friend calvin LOL. Calvin’s pretty cute too; cuter when it comes to looks but I don’t really know him personality-wise. Why do I like you??????????? I never thought I would..even though I knew you liked me, I just never really liked you in that way necessarily..now we talk every day and I just..I just like you. What would I do if we began to not talk anymore? I don’t even know :/ what would I do if you stopped liking me? have you already? I’m not sure. my affections always do this to me ugh. I like someone at the wrong time. Either I like a guy, and he doesn’t like me. Then I stop liking him, and he begins to like me. What the fuck is up with that? Seriously though..or it’s vice versa. A guy likes me, and I take a while to like someone thus I don’t like him at the time. We begin to talk more, I get to know him. I start to like him. I realize that I’ve lost the opportunity to be with him, and now am friendzoned. welp help :( I want to be with you..like legit be with you not just friends anymore. Do I tell you? That I like you? That’s too risky for me though..please say you still have those feelings for me. I will try to respark them in you if you don’t; however, if they are lost, I still want to talk to you and be your friend. Although it never works out that way..someone always likes the other person and then eventually the friendship slowly gets weaker and weaker until one day, neither person has the energy or strength to withhold it. It dies off, becomes a long-lost friendship that chances are one person will look back at it, reminiscing. Nostalgia. Melancholy. Lost.